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July 13, 2009

Is the weekend really over?

Friday night the kittens + the cougars (hehe) had dinner @ Pacific Rim.  I had the best martini- grape fizz...mmm...We (all 3 of us) RARELY ever get to hang out!  I ♥ my girls!!!

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  • 3 kittens + 2 cougars
  • one purple fizz martini
  • 2 white mochatini martinis (me + kate)
  • sunny side up roll (ick!!!)
  • xlerator hand dryer haha (kristen + I can always get a kick outta these)
  • Kim Kardashian pose lesson taught by kate

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then we decided to go to Celtic Crossing...

  • "she's driving like that chick on the 40 year old virgin"- kate..."did she really just almost throw my business cd out the window"- kristen..."she almost just swerved into me!"-me
  • 1 ex-boyfriend siting & later I got asked if I was engaged or married to him (haha!)
  • 5 free shots from DJ (we were totally confused + thought he was the dj haha!!!)
  • 1, "he can dance like a m*****f*****"-kate, gay(?)Spaniard (hehe)
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    • Michelob Ultra in lieu of Corona Light
    • hot suit pants + unwashed hair b/c I didn't know we were going out
    • viewing of kate's infamous booty dancing :]
    • danced to "pretty young thing" at least twice (luv that song)
    • too many tequila shots
    • 2 pouty face poses

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    Saturday I had lunch with Travis, my old studio roomy, after I FINALLY started feeling SOMEWHAT better.  Then I went makeup + craft supply shopping.  Fun stuff!  Felt sick most of the day + went to bed EARLY!!!

    Sunday I cleaned a LITTLE, did laundry + sewed SOME.  Then Kristen came over + we went to Bath + Body Works + the antique mall:

    •  kitchen, deep cleansing, fresh lime basil soap...mmm...smelled so good
    • gentle foaming soap- Rainkissed leaves :]
    • 1 jar of buttons (some of my favorites EVER):

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    • lots of crocheted doilies...hmm...which one to choose for the class? I'm thinking the blue one...i love the black, yellow + green one but it's too small i think :'(

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    • I told Kristen I look for this book every time I go in to antique malls + guess WHAT?  She found it.  Thanks sweetie :] (I collect Alice in Wonderland books, it's my *fav*)

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    July 10, 2009

    Happy Friday!!!

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    Kristen + I at my mom's pool party.  I have never seen so many cars + women at the house, haha.  I had to work that day :(  but stopped by at lunch.  The tropical chicken salad I made was a hit.

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    Is it weird to anyone else that I'm on the right in all of these pictures??? haha.  Yeah- we like to take pictures :]  These are taken @ Stix.  Mom, Barbara (my aunt), Kristen, Dylan (my nephew), Luke (my nephew) + I all went last night.  The boys love ♥ hibatchi.

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    Kristen + I got the MOST perfect fortune cookies EVER.  I think mine is self explanatory, but Kristen is always talking about wanting to travel + go to Europe.  We were actually talking about it a few days ago.  It came up in a conversation about having babies.  We both agreed that we still feel so young to be having kids + that's one thing we want to do [travel] before that happens.

    "Blue Light" by Bloc Party just came on my Pandora.  I love that song + the lyrics... 

    "You'll find it hiding in shadows
    You'll find it hiding in cupboards
    It will walk you home safe every night♥
    It will help you remember

    If that's way it is
    Then that's the way it is

    I still feel you and the taste of cigarettes
    What could I ever run to
    Just tell me it's tearing you apart♥
    Just tell me you cannot sleep♥

    And you didn't even notice
    When the sky turned blue
    And you couldn't tell the difference
    Between me and you
    And I nearly didn't notice
    The gentlest feeling

    You are the bluest light"

    I'm slightly obsessed with song lyrics.  Kara says: "There really is nothing else like it and because some of the loneliest moments in my life have been often comforted by a song that just gets it and explains it and makes everything a little less frightening. The mutual understanding between the lyrics and me is sometimes overwhelming. It’s a quiet and intimate connection."  I totally agree!  She is the "teacher" of the "class" I'm doing.  She's 17!  I think that's awesome!!!

    List for the weekend???

    • Go craft shopping (my *fav* thing to do) for the class: embroidery floss + sequins + crocheted doilies + letter stencils? (i have most of the supplies)
    • Maybe check out some antique/thrift stores for doilies too?
    • Make sure I have sandpaper laying around
    • Print sheet music with + without words (for the class too)
    • Hang out with Kristen tonight + maybe Katherine...maybe a sleepover like the good old days, haha :]  See what kind of trouble we can get into.  Ha!
    • Have lunch w/ Travis tomorrow (haven't seen him in 4ever!)
    • Lay out by the pool...see if I can get a darker shade of pale, haha.
    • Maybe see a movie?
    • Relax
    • Sleep
    • Read
    • Forget

    July 08, 2009

    the I wannas...

    ok...so here's the deal...i first saw this on my friends facebook probably 6 or 7 years ago...i fell in love with it + what he said...his is different now than it was then...but anyways...here's mine...i finally did it :]

    • I wanna dive in. 
    • I wanna always speak the truth. 
    • I wanna be the one. 
    • I wanna laugh til I cry. 
    • I wanna be in love with nothing less. 
    • I wanna know he’s out there + find him. 
    • I wanna make you lose your mind. 
    • I wanna get a tattoo. 
    • I wanna forget. 
    • I wanna be true to myself. 
    • I wanna deserve more. 
    • I wanna make a living doing something creative. 
    • I wanna create. 
    • I wanna believe. 
    • I wanna move. 
    • I wanna go camping + star gazing. 
    • I wanna fly away. 
    • I wanna be you + me forever. 
    • I wanna lose 20 lbs. 
    • I wanna amaze + surprise you. 
    • I wanna be unique. 
    • I wanna get married. 
    • I wanna be a great mom to a little girl or twins (one boy, one girl). 
    • I wanna have no regrets. 
    • I wanna travel + go to as many places on the 1,000 places to see before you die list. 
    • I wanna watch the sun set overlooking the Grand Canyon. 
    • I wanna drive cross-county in an Airstream. 

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    • I wanna be taken care of. 
    • I wanna be your baby blue. 
    • I wanna change the world for you. 
    • I wanna live life to the fullest. 
    • I wanna take a little ride. 
    • I wanna be exactly what you need. 
    • I wanna let go + not hold back. 
    • I wanna stop judging myself. 
    • I wanna believe in magic + destiny. 
    • I wanna be taken off guard. 
    • I wanna experience new things. 
    • I wanna receive love letters. 
    • I wanna be patient + understanding. 
    • I wanna be appreciated. 
    • I wanna have a good heart. 
    • I wanna always see the good in life. 
    • I wanna be peaceful. 
    • I wanna fall in love as much as possible. 
    • I wanna get letters + missives carried by conventional postal delivery services. 

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    • I wanna have a pen pal. 
    • I wanna finish what I start. 
    • I wanna do a triathlon. 
    • I wanna go to Bora Bora on my honeymoon. 
    • I wanna make lots of lists + complete them. 
    • I wanna hold hands. 
    • I wanna have my heart melted lots!!! 
    • I wanna be picked over all the other girls. 
    • I wanna swing. 
    • I wanna kiss in the rain. 
    • I wanna slow dance. 
    • I wanna fulfill my dreams. 

    I love Yim Yames!!!

    aka Jim James... tribute to George Harrison:

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    my sweet lord melts my heart!!! <3

    I'm also excited about Monsters of Folk!!!  CONOR OBERST + YIM YAMES + M.WARD + MIKE MOGIS...9-22-09...can't wait :]

    July 07, 2009

    Back to school...not really

    I signed up for this class:

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    I have never done one before + thought why not???  I love music + lyrics + composition notebooks + art journaling.  Sounds like a perfect combo to me :]

    Also here.

    July 06, 2009

    Independence

    I hope everyone had a Happy 4th!

    I got off early Friday which was a pleasant surprise.  Kristen, Michael + I hung out at the house and quizzed each other:

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    (note: Michael reading Cosmo + drinking Corona Light...Kristen reading Men's Health + drinking red wine...yep, I love them!!!) [jaguar in the back, hehe]

    • Friday we left before the jaguar party started, picked up Josh + went to dinner @ Ciao Bella.  The lady that sat behind us had her back turned the whole time + was staring at us.  I swear she really wanted to join our table, loved my interesting conversation or was offended by  my potty mouth, haha :] Either way it was ridiculous!!!  We crashed the jaguar party, talked girl talk + I had the best chocolate martini.  Best quotes??? "At first I was scared + thought it looks like an elephant trunk sorta...or a turtle head..."  "Have you ever eaten at Humdinger's?...hum on ur dinger...haha" Yeah, ok we're a little silly + easily amused.
    • Saturday Kristen + I made the hottest bloody mary's "if you like it hot, i'm your girl" haha + watched the three hour THS: Michael Jackson + layed around all day.  That night we watched fireworks in the pool.  Kristen + I teeter-tottered in the smallest intertube, haha.  I haven't laughed so hard in a LONG time!  I also did a back dive which I thought I would never do again.  I even got a flasheroo of a dijerydoo, haha!!!  Kristen + I tried to make martinis, but something went VERY wrong.  Ick!  I don't know why I didn't take pictures of any of this :(
    • Sunday I picked up Kristen + we went to the awesome redone Kroger.  She wanted to make homemade guacamole.  It was really good, but so hot! (go figure, hehe).  We all ate Commissary BBQ, drank the BEST piña coladas + watched Slumdog Millionare.  They loved it, but not me.  I like movies that make you feel good in the end + this one didn't do that for me.  It was a great story about destiny though.

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    July 03, 2009

    Happy Friday!!!

    A friend told me about this movie last night.  It looks really good:

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    I even had a dream about Jack White last night, haha.  I dreamed we were making out before a show- best dream ever :]  he he.  Katherine + I are going to Nashville for the weekend to see him play (The Dead Weather) July 30.  I can't wait!!!

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    These movies look really good too:

    Where the wild 

    Where The Wild Things Are.

    Alice 

    Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland.  I love Johnny Depp!!!  He's one of my cousins...far down the line.  I also love Alice in Wonderland!  It is my favorite story + I collect older editions of it.

    Away 

    Away We Go Site.

    "Let Them Go"

    By T. D. Jakes

    There are people who can walk away from you.

    And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you, let them walk.
    I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you,
    coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean, hang up the phone.

    When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who left.

    The Bible said that they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for
    us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

    People leave you because they are not joined to you.
    And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

    Let them go.

    It doesn't mean that they are a bad person; it just means that their part in the story is over.
    And you've got to know when peoples' part in your story is over
    so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead.

    You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift. I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it.
    Stop begging people to stay.

    Let them go!

    July 01, 2009

    Lying in the hands of god

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    The new Dave Matthews Band album is awesome!!!  I listened to it the whole time I was in Florida, and now it reminds me of my Seaside trip:

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    We stopped at Peach Park in the heart of Alabama.  We had BBQ, homemade peach ice cream + fried peach pies.  They were so good!!!  You have to check this place out if you are ever in the area.

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    When I saw the Seaside sign I started to feel sick.  I just couldn't image having to go through seeing it without Mike.  We had planned to start our family together here.  When I stepped into the house it got worse...I just wanted to crawl in bed and not come out.  All I could think about was the Sweetie Pie Cottage where we would marry and I was dying to see it (almost an obssesion):

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    Nothing happened when I saw it.  Just emptiness.  I had to call the photographer + meet with the wedding planner.  The first thing she said to me was "Congratulations" and then I had to tell her...with all the photos of happy brides + couples on the walls...that it wasn't happening.

    "Confess your kiss
    Still knocks me off my legs
    First time I saw you
    Was like a punch right through my chest
    I will forever
    Because you'll
    Forever be
    My one true broken heart
    Pieces inside of me
    And you forever my baby" -Baby Blue lyrics

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    I don't know how, but Mike did come to the beach for a few days (this was my FAVORITE picture we took).  They were magical + special days to me, but also very hard.  I wanted time to appreciate him, talk to him in person, kiss him and hold him one more time.  I got to do that, and I am thankful.  Things may be the same now as they were, but I had that time to be the way we were once again + I cherish that.  How could it not be real + not meant to be?  People may think I'm crazy + I need to get over him/forget him, but it's not easy.

    "Do you know what it is
    To feel the light of love inside you
    And all the darkness falls away
    If you feel the way I feel
    Then I believe we have the answer
    I've been searching for tonight
    Love me baby love me baby
    Shake me like a monkey baby
    Forever I'm yours yours yours
    Yeah forever I'm...

    Yes and no
    You have to choose
    Romeo and Juliet
    The hangman and his noose
    You and me we go good together

    Kiss kiss make a wish
    Hope that it comes true
    I ain't waiting for the world to change
    Gonna change the world for you

    Come on pretty baby
    Make you lose your mind
    Everybody get together
    Gonna make love shine" -Shake Me Like A Monkey lyrics

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    "Tell me everything will be OK
    If I just stay on my knees and keep praying
    Believing in something
    Tell me everything is all taken care of
    By those qualified to take care of it all

    Wake up sleepy head I think the sun's a little brighter today
    Smile and watch the icicles melt away and see the waters rising
    Summer's here to stay and that sweet summer breeze will blow forever
    Go down to the shore kick off your shoes dive in the empty ocean

    One day do you think we'll wake up
    In a world on its way to getting better
    And if so
    Can you tell me
    How" -Dive In lyrics

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    I wanted to catch lightening so bad + I finally did...twice!

    "Want to pack your bags
    Something small
    Take what you need
    And we'll disappear
    Without a trace
    We'll be gone gone
    Moon and the stars
    Will follow the car
    Then when we get
    To the ocean
    Gonna take a boat
    To the end of the world
    All the way
    To the end of the world
    Oh and when the kids
    Are old enough we're
    Gonna teach them to fly

    You and me together
    We can do anything baby
    You and me together
    Yes yes
    The two of us together
    We can do anything baby
    You and me together yes yes

    You and I we're not tied
    To the ground
    Not falling but rising
    Like rolling around
    Eyes closed above the
    Rooftops eyes closed
    We're gonna
    Spin through
    The stars

    Our arms wide as the
    Sky we're gonna ride
    The blue all the way
    To the end of the world
    All the way to the
    End of the world
    Oh and when the kids
    Are old enough we're
    Gonna teach them to fly

    You and me together
    We can do anything
    Baby you and me
    Together yes yes
    The two of us together
    We can do anything baby
    You and me together
    Yes yes

    We can always look back
    At what we did
    Always the memory of
    You and me baby
    But right now it's you
    And me forever girl
    You know we can do
    Better than anything that
    We did you know that you
    And me we can do anything

    You and me together
    We can do anything baby
    You and me together
    Yes yes
    The two of us together...." -You and Me lyrics


    June 19, 2009

    Happy Friday!

    How is the list coming?

    #4 didn't happen, but that was my choice...I'm going to the beach, which is #13 and having surgery, so I would have missed too many days from work.  I would have gone again though if MMJ, Jack White + Ben Folds were there again, haha.

    #5 happened...it was amazing + they are amazingly wonderful

    #8 happened...at first I was like what is that? haha...cookie was aka for engagement ring...we looked twice before deciding on the most beautiful ring.  Too bad it's sitting in the box :(

    #10 is in the process (for the beach):

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    (sorry the pic is so bad, it's from the i-phone)  Just needs to be finished w/ a backing + batting

    It was supposed to be for Mike + I on the beach + for future picnics, but now it's sort of a mourning quilt.  Making a quilt can be very theraputic.

    The backing + batting is on now:

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    (another bad i-phone pic @ night)

    #18...I didn't go see The Curious Case of Bejamin Button, but I bought + watched it at home.  Such a great movie.  Makes you appreciate the time you have"I was thinking how nothing lasts, and what a shame that is." -B. Button "Your life is defined by its opportunities... even the ones you miss." -B. Button "Sometimes we're on a collision course, and we just don't know it. Whether it's by accident or by design, there's not a thing we can do about it." -B. Button  "For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again." -B. Button (to his daughter) "Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?" -Mrs. Maple

    #19 I did a little of.  Need to do more though.

    #21 I think it is :)

    #22 Yep, I am journaling a LOT more!!!  I think I should write a book, ha! 

    #24  hmm...i'm not feeling to magical.  Magic might be gone.

    #25  This is a hard one.  I'm having mixed feelings right now.

    I still have 83 days til my birthday.  It's on a Friday, Yay!

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    It's the weirdest thing, I've been craving lemon sweets like crazy!!!  I even had a dream about lemon oreos, haha.  Yesterday at lunch I saw this cute cupcake at Whole Foods and guess what?!?!  It's lemony sweet.  It also has the biggest gumdrop on top I've ever seen.  Major cuteness.

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    This was my fun lunch today :]  Pretty cool huh?

    I leave for Seaside, FL this Tues.  I can't wait.  It's just going to be mom + I.  It was supposed to be my parents + Mike's parents first meeting (Mike was going too).  I think it will be hard to see where Mike + I were getting married, but I need the time to relax + get back to being myself.  I guess we'll see how hard it is.  I plan to take lots of books, cameras, my journal + art supplies.  I should have known it was too good to be true.

    "When It's Good"

    You're a prison I can't escape
    You're a decision I never make
    Heard me laughing
    You heard me weep and moan

    Oh- when it's good, it's so, so good
    When it's gone, it's gone

    They say time will kill the pain
    I say pain is gonna kill my time
    Lord won't you save me
    Or leave me alone

    Cause when it's good, it's so, so good
    When it's gone, it's gone
    Oh- gone

    I hang your picture right above my mind
    Don't do anything you can't deny
    I could never be your pawn

    Oh- cause when it's good, it's so, so good
    When it's gone, it's gone

    Some drink to remember
    Some to forget
    Some for satisfaction
    Some to regret
    I hope a brighter day to you I've shown

    Oh- cause when it's good, it's so, so good
    And when it's gone, it's gone
    When it's gone, it's gone
    When it's gone, it's gone
    When it's gone, Oh- it's gone

    -Ben Harper

    June 15, 2009

    Stormy Outside, Stormy Inside

    Friday Kim (my sis-in-law) + her friend Carrie came in town to see Keith Urban.  We met them for dinner at Sole.  On the way downtown the storms came...At least dinner was amazing!!!

    Saturday mom + I went to Arlington, TN.  We wanted to check out this antique store:

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    We didn't get anything, but I saw this cool sewing table w/ machine:

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    I should have taken a picture of the whole inside.  It was 3 stories with crazy wood wraparound banisters on the second floor.  This was on the third floor:

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    There was also an old gin mill that looked interesting:

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    Sunday was Kacey's 6th birthday!  Happy Birthday to my sweetheart Kacey!  Yesterday Three Dog Bakery was closed, so I am going to take her there tonight (and Vera too).  She likes the pupcakes + anything soft.

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    Still trying to figure some things out...this past week has been tough for both of us.  All I know is I love him + that's all I can do.